Gods, help me.
Jan. 8th, 2004 08:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xansSchool is so intimidating. Half my classes are easy as hell, while the other half make me wish I was sick all the time. In fact, I think I'm stressed out. I found out in psychology that one of the three universial phobias of children is of failure and rejection. Well, I guess I'm not grown up. I'm scared shitless of failing.
I look into the future, and see the path I want to walk. I see myself tripping and falling off of a cliff before I take that walk. Just because I'm so damn scared of facing what's to come. For some reason, the unknown of death is less terrifying than the unknown of the rest of my life.
But I know about ripples in a pond. And that stops me. There are some ripples I need not make. Don't worry about me. I'm just fucking scared.
Coaxing a fire is kind of fun. It's annoying when there's no lighter handy, because both smokers in the family are out of the house, and don't seem to leave spare lighters about. It's not like I've ever burned the house down before. *stops, and blushes over memory* My one episode of pyromania is long done.
I think I have developed an addiction to my Wild Cherry Capri Sun. But then, we have no juice and it's nice and tangy. It's also Wild Cherry.
So Biz has a copy of New Spring, Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time prequel. When she's done I get to read it. I'm a bit confused as it shares the name of a prequel short story of his about Moiraine bonding Lan. This has Moiraine, again, but there's.... stuff. I'm not sure if I will like it.
Yeah I think that's enough out of me.
Fin.
I look into the future, and see the path I want to walk. I see myself tripping and falling off of a cliff before I take that walk. Just because I'm so damn scared of facing what's to come. For some reason, the unknown of death is less terrifying than the unknown of the rest of my life.
But I know about ripples in a pond. And that stops me. There are some ripples I need not make. Don't worry about me. I'm just fucking scared.
Coaxing a fire is kind of fun. It's annoying when there's no lighter handy, because both smokers in the family are out of the house, and don't seem to leave spare lighters about. It's not like I've ever burned the house down before. *stops, and blushes over memory* My one episode of pyromania is long done.
I think I have developed an addiction to my Wild Cherry Capri Sun. But then, we have no juice and it's nice and tangy. It's also Wild Cherry.
So Biz has a copy of New Spring, Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time prequel. When she's done I get to read it. I'm a bit confused as it shares the name of a prequel short story of his about Moiraine bonding Lan. This has Moiraine, again, but there's.... stuff. I'm not sure if I will like it.
Yeah I think that's enough out of me.
Fin.
