Just existing

[xans]

I've been in a bit of a weird limbo lately. I'm not overly active in any particular fandom, I haven't been reading a lot of fanfic or watching/rewatching any shows that make me want to write reaction posts about and engage with others watching it too. I'm still low-key obsessed with Moon Knight, but like, I'm very particular about what I want to consume in that fandom and also weirdly antisocial about it. I think there's a couple other fandom discords that exist that I'd like to be a part of, but I'm too chickenshit to ask for an invite.

I also haven't been strongly drawn into any new shows (we're kinda sorta watching Hanna, Halo, and the live-action ATLA but I'll forget to put them on a lot).

Currently I'm reading the Pegasus serirs by Kate O'Hearn, which is not bad YA stuff, although... like, I asked my husband what he thought of the ATLA show that we've watched so far, and he said it was ok, but also kind of weird how it seemed to fluctuate between corny/cheesy and then rather violent for something with YA protagonists. And this book series I feel kind of the same.

I seem to be keeping anxiety at bay, though there was a week there not long after the school year started I thought things were going to set me off again, but we're handling it.

Comments

[soggymulder]

that's a really weird and annoying feeling. restless and unsatisfied mind can be the worst. we're not so much in a rut (we're on and off watching For All Mankind, various Alone seasons and some chateaux restoration crap on youtube in between Caleb Hammer stuff lol) but studying is just ruining all off-time for me rn. even when i don't study i struggle with "productivity guilt" so now when i'm ACTUALLY probably procrastinating, it's just excruciating....hateeeeee

i do feel blessed that i am back in my perma-fandom currently, so that's some solace even with the 0 time.

i hope you find something that satisfies your brain in the right way soon!! and stay away anxiety!!!