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xansI wish she would just leave me alone. I got the "you need to get a job" lecture for the second time today. I don't know how I manage not to yell at her to shut up and leave me alone. I KNOW I need a job, damnit. I may not say anything, I may not appear to by trying, but I am. As if I need to hear again that I'm no longer a dependent, and that if Gary doesn't get to keep his job we'll be in too tight a spot and that she's worked two jobs for too long...
It doesn't help me to try and scare me into doing more. It stresses me out. I don't want to be stressed out, which is why I've backed off and out and away and whatever to get her to leave me alone. I don't want to hear from her what I already tell myself. All I get shown is a problem, and not a solution. She tells me she'll help me with this or that facet, and then she forgets.
So what if I'm not rushing to highlight every possible job in the classifieds? So what if I haven't told her what I have been doing? I don't want to talk about it, because whatever she tells me then only makes me depressed and stressed.
Just leave me alone.
It doesn't help me to try and scare me into doing more. It stresses me out. I don't want to be stressed out, which is why I've backed off and out and away and whatever to get her to leave me alone. I don't want to hear from her what I already tell myself. All I get shown is a problem, and not a solution. She tells me she'll help me with this or that facet, and then she forgets.
So what if I'm not rushing to highlight every possible job in the classifieds? So what if I haven't told her what I have been doing? I don't want to talk about it, because whatever she tells me then only makes me depressed and stressed.
Just leave me alone.
